i also had a nice dream where mom was still alie.we were driving with mom and a freind and mom said we were driving too fast

I love you mom.
I hope my cat and dog make you  feel better in heaven / We miss you.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LGMFWemvxd8

Mom,

God do I miss u so much. Everynight I am so sad. I have a great girlfriend and I am doing my music.

I visited the OCD Clinic at UCLA. I feel like my OCD is back. Mom , please don’t worry about me. I am doing ok. Love danny

I made these videos of my cat Max and dog Dekka.

Love forever and ever

Danny

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W08Gkp07zHw&list=PLtuZWgOSZobfQp_tyTenau-0FreDLcT-c

hi mom,

god do i miss you everyday.

i went to west LA college to sign up for music classes

it was the first time i went back to WEST LA without you.

god do i miss u.

my music is going much better.

i just recorded 3 songs with lauren.me and angi are working with my new mac.

god do i love u.

this world feels so empty.

i spoke with reverand margaret

we are working on songs for u.

i had a dream. i was failing nursing school. you told me that one of my chinese friends from pharmacy school wanted to help.it was too late, i was already failing.

love u so much danny

July 22,2016

Dear Jason,

How are you? How is the food up in Heaven? I decided to write this letter to you instead of mom.

Nightmares

1) Jumping across a 20 foot canyon.

I first succeeded was so scared at first. Then I jumped. I landed safely on the other side.

Then Tammy ( my younger sister) tried to also jump across. I was very nervous and afraid that Tammy would fall into the canyon. We were allowed to catch the person once they made it across. some people made it across

Only to fall backwards and die. Suddenly, I saw one of my friends Romen. We were camp counselors many years ago. He wanted to help.

I was resistant but I knew only one person was allowed to catch Tammy.

Romen was much taller than me.

I asked him to be the one to catch tammy. Tammy made it across. I was relieved.

Dream 2

Dear Mom,

I had the cutest dream in which my one year old cat max met me in a diner. I picked him up. He was talking. He told me that he loved me.

There was a elementary school teacher at the table. she told me that max had memorized a speech and that the

I love you was part of a script.

Then max turned into a 4 year old boy and I was in his preschool.

I love you mom. See u tomorrow.

Have you seen grandpa and grandma. You will be happy that my friend nick and my girlfriend angi are building a recording studio in my house.i have a new Mac and I am using a program called logic.

Lauren and I are finally recording the song that I wrote for you. Song of hope.Tammy and Darli are visiting Israeli think dad is with them saw dafna and Talia and Elliot and it was fun.we had a family lunch with tammy and darli.

Dear Jason,

I feel guilty that you passed away and I could not help you.i wanted you to get help with your bipolar.I wish you didn't choose suicide. God do I miss you.
I remember when you got sober for a few years.I will never forget how you taught me how to read.

July 17,2016

Hi Mom, 

I love you so much.How are u?Have you seen jason around?

Last night I had the coolest dream about you. It was the best dream I ever had.

Angi. and I were driving. Angi. I hope you are not reading this. Anti.is still in bed with her cat grip but my cat max is running around the room. Everytime max approached grip, griz. makes a loud his.

Max never seems to learn but Angi. and I trying to train Max.

Tammy told me and Angi that we would have lunch on Sunday at 530pm at Whiskey Red’s in Marina Del Rey.

When I arrived, Tammy was there with your Darli ( my niece). Dafna was there with her 2 kids. Talia ( 6yrs old) and Elliot ( 4yrs old). Our nurse Gail was there and you’re best Israeli friend Ziva was there.

I spoke with Ziva. She always tells me that you(mom) wanted me to start tutoring English and Biology again.

I told Ziva that me and Angi have one student.

“ Ziva, you are going to be so happy. Do you remember you told me to write  a letter to you everyday?”

“Yes Danny. Diva, I got this new mac pro. My friend builds macs for rock stars. My new mac has Protools and Logic programs. Me and Angi can record songs like a professional real studio.”

Tammy told me that she is going to Israel for a few weeks. I told Tammy not to go because it might be dangerous.

Talia and Elliot were 

So mom, last night you visited me 2 times

Dream 1

1) You called Angi and I. Angi was driving her Toyota SUV. She was driving fast on this curvy mountain road.

Anti always drives fast. So you called us and you said,

“ I am in a restaurant near Pico and Robertson. How long will it take for you and Angi to get here?”

“ I don’t know. We will be in LA area in about 15 minutes.”

 I knew that it would take more than 15 minutes but if I told this to Angi should might not take me.

Dream 2

2)In this dream, you(mom) were in the hospital. You seemed to be ok. Tammy(younger sister), Dafna( older sister), Gail ( nurse) and myself were in a hospital room( probably UCLA?)

. I think you were in a wheelchair.

You were given a diet from a previous doctor.  Tammy was talking about how the diet had too much sugar.

Dafna and I were a few feet away from you. A male doctor came in the room. Dafna. and I noticed him right away.

“ Tammy, the doctor is here.” Tammy was talking about mom but she was sitting far away from us.

The doctor said,  “ There seems to be a lot of sugar in you’re mom’s food.”

3) I am in high school. I was taking a test where I had to write an essay.It might have been University High School?

I actually  went to Uni. I kept writing my essay. It was a test. The teacher said to me

“ I think you’re done Danny. Why don’t you just turn your essay in?”

The essay didn’t seem complete. I had to go to the bathroom. I found a bathroom. 

It seemed like the smallest bathroom I have ever been in. It was so small that I decided not to go.

4) I was camping with Angi.  We were missing some food. There was a guy there also camping. I asked him if he liked my favorite band TOOL.He said yes. Then he said  “ Danny, please help me.” He had lost his cat. I helped him. 

I asked him if he had an email and he told me that it was his work email and that he could not give it out.

mom and jason. lauren and I are doing some improv comedy. dont worry mom , i am sober. in the skits i sometimes play a none 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FVs-c1iucc8&list=PLtuZWgOSZobcb3DLu944VDQzLipjZn4yg